And yet, my fastest path out of here is going back to contract work. Perhaps equal or better money, but no benefits (which I need to make sure the kid can see the doctor when he needs to).
It's been like this for a month or so.
Ask for more work, consider quitting. Ask for help, check monster on the weekends.
Then when it does come, it's literally a text document of raw code, with the instructions "translate."
I know there are people who have the ability to do that -- but I'm not really one of them. I never claimed to be in the interview process. But that's sort of the life of a tech writer -- you're thrown into unfamiliar waters, and with time and training you eventually learn to swim enough to get by.
It's like moving to a foreign country to learn a language. You'll never know everything, but eventually you'll get to a point where you can make conversation.
But if the training never arrives, if there's never an opportunity to immerse myself in the colloquial..
The people here are nice (mostly). It's a really small company -- so I can't imagine no one's noticed just how much I don't do around here -- but it's not like I'm leaving work on the table.
You'd think that would be awesome: Ask for work, don't get any, surf web, collect salary.
And I suppose in some senses that is a perk. But honestly, I could do that on my own (minus the money part) at home.
My former longstanding job was a mess of personal politics and managerial footdragging. But at least I felt like someone needed my skills and counted on my ability to solve problems. At least I knew I could get help if I needed it.
I don't want to change jobs again. It's a pain in the ass and it messes with my finances, my schedules, and my time with my son.
But I don't know how much longer this is going to work.
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