Written in Red

In the dream you were the same as when I last saw you
   and that's the only way I know it was fantasy.
     A vision of you that returns to me sometimes...
       but it's a vision of who you *were* -- not of who you are now.
         But you were so real, so alive, so... you
           that all I could do was wake up and feel sad.
             What does it mean when you appear?
               What does it mean that this memory of you,
                 this picture in my mind -- nearly 15 years old
                  ...still turns away every time I stare into your eyes?